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heyyy~ its queenieee
a girl who stresses and worries about everything..sorry guys! trying very hard to fix that! ==
but moving on...i just want to say that I LOVEE my cousinss!! always supporting me and making me laugh when i'm at my saddest...

This is very depressing btw soo haha but i need to release ;)
as you all know...i broke up with my bf, mel~ it was a relationship that has brought me great pain but also great happiness.

At the beginning, the relationship was going really well until...he moved to epping and i started yr 12...from then onwards it started to break down, we hardly saw each other...we started drifting apart ...my mum will constantly tell me and pressure me to not to let one guy affect my future..so i tried my best to focus on my studies but of course the time spent with my bf was decreasing

whenever we talked, he would always tell me how lonely he was without me..i felt soo guilty...it was unfair that he had to suffer because of my selfishness. i was mad at myself..hated myself...
i always tell him sorry i dont spend enough time with you...he always tells me nicely that 'its fine' 'i understand' but i know deep down inside he really disliked the fact that he could not spend time with his gf like in a normal relationship. i always thought breaking up would be better for both of us but i was wrong...

i have come to realise that i actually still love him very much but its too late...cos i've already lost him...
jay will probably kill me when she sees this...but i've been crying non stop over him today** even now...
i hope he finds happiness with someone who will always be there for him ....

fkkkk i'm going to get red panda eyes tomorrow O_O

anyways~ on a happier side! i want to say thanks to Jay!!! who puts up with my depression err nearly everyday and can always make me laugh soo hard with her err dirtiness and sexiness LOL...*btw i still feel sorry for the camel ;)
Viv!! you're always giving me comfort and listened to me even tho you had english hw !! and of course i love jackieee! even tho she chose maths over me haha but i still love her! you guys makes mee...-nose bleed/erect- god why do you guys have to be soo hot for
fkk if only aus. allows incest and lesbian relationships!! i'll marry you alll!!

this weekend was a depressing onee....but i've decided not to look back at the past but instead move forward!!

and i just cant emphasise enough....



I LOVEEE MY COUSINSSSS

but omg i cant wait to bitch about cailtin!! fk i hate viet girls ><

lots of love,
qq~

Frustration building up...

Hello~ Hello~ HELLO!!

It's Be~ once again commenting on this fabulous blog on our family from the inside!! <-- bit confusing right there.. anyway.. this is a blog dedicated to Jay's previous 2 blogs.. really.. life within our family is hard.. cold rock hard.. DAMN RIGHT!! Cold Rock In Your Face Hard~ ok >.> i'll stop.. =.="

Back to the main story!! Ok so yea... my sis has been a pain in the ass... not literally.. but honestly.. shes just.. ugh.. UNbelievable!! I mean yes i've been though the rebellion stage but you have to have limits right? I don't want to go into depth too much on her for the time being as it'll take me WAYYYYY too long to really post it up.. BUT on the surface~ cut short~ wateva.. here it is..
*age 15.. turning 16
*changed schools..
*foul attitude
*smokes
*devirginised xD
*skips school at least half the time
*forging signatures
*getting into fights
*comes home at 11pm every night (if lucky)
*known as the "RAKING queen" (raking means stealing for those who don't know ;p)
*has had many affairs outside her currently: 7th bf since.. 2008?
**secret*
*went through abortion
*etc etc. cant think of it right now.. too much xD

Honestly.. I don't wanna make my sister look bad or anything.. but reli.. I'm not exaggerating!! Its just drives us all insane.. my point is.. I know my mum has it bad and all.. I mean having such a disgraceful daughter.. but being the fact that i'm currently in my hsc year.. i have trouble learning how to study >.> [yea as i said i'm more the party girl], barely hitting the deadline of my assessments, having trouble with some of my peers, pressured by my grandma.. problems with my father.. and definately feel sorry for my mum. All i really wanna do is just help my mum out by taking matters into my hand.. yes~ that means taking responsibility of my sister >< but =/ its not as easy as it sounds
I swear without my cousins to really help me out through these times I would be soo lost and frustrated!! It's somewhat.. CRAZY!!! The effects on my emotional life!! REALLY!! Not to boast or anything, but i consider myself a really optimistic girl, i see the light in everything~ Just.. *sigh* its hard to really do that when you're just lost in the middle of nowhere, stuck between family and school which one to pay more attention to? Resulting me in my somewhat foul mood. I had been snappy and really short tempered but I guess i just wasnt use to that new change, I mean I'm only 16!! You can't expect me to take this on myself!! I don't tell my friends because everyones busy and I dont want to put burden on them too, my family.. disagrees with me and everything.. *sigh* but here I am coping with it all being a strong girl I am, I have shred tears, I have expressed anger.. Most Importantly, I saw who really knew and loves me~

Jay!! To you!! I really don't deserve all the compliment you gave me!!! I just enjoy seeing everyone around me smiling even if i'm not inside, I'll give you one on the outside!! i mean.. why ruin a party with a drunk? Why ruin a day with a frown?! If you ever need me, I'll be there!! I might not be the best listener because I'm a talker myself!! but i'll do my best~ Haha

Honestly!!! You've been much more of a help to me than i've been to you!! Trust me bubz!! Knowing that i'll be seeing you puts a smile on my face!! To you and I'm saying this to my cousins out there whos reading this too~ You guys are the best things thats happened in my life!!

Gosh!!! Didn't you reckon this post is soooo not like me?!
It seemed wayyy too depressing in the middle~ Thats a little insight to my mind xD
It's messy, it's confusing but I live the life I live and I know there are many out there who are going through worse!!!

Anyway~ I love ending things on a bright note!! SO GUYS!!! WISH ME LUCK ON MY UPCOMING HALF YEARLIES!! Hope you guys have also aced it with flying colours!! Oh!! AND A GREAT SHOUT OUT TO QUEENIE!! WHO WOULD BE JOINING US SOON IN THIS BLOG!! ANOTHER GREAT COUSIN OF OURs WHO WE EXTREMELY VALUE!!

She will be bringing us another insight to our family life [Haha aren't we seeing our family life from so many different angles xD]!! Anyway back to queenie!!! She's a sex goddess <-- not literally!! but the moment you lay your eyes on her.. *bam* you think you just went to heaven~ Ahh it runs in the blood!!Viv and Jay.. *nose bleed* f**k!! Opps!!! I didn't swear but I just couldn't help it!! Seksi Girls beautiful inside and outside~ what you guys out there should be looking for, not the sluts that are keeping your eyes blind from what you should truly value!!!

Signing Out.
Bebe.

This morning grandma stopped me in the kitchen and talked to me. She told me that Jackie needs to stop back-chatting to her parents because she's making them upset with the constant arguing. Of course the real reason she wanted to talk to me was because she wanted to tell me about Jackie's mum. She said that her mum was feeling sick and she was crying because she was upset about Bec.

Apparently Bec hasn't been going to school lately, and there's been worries that she might be kicked out of the school if she doesn't attend. The last school she went to apparently complained a lot of her, and that's why she had to switch schools.

And her mum has been so upset about this because she doesn't know what to do and she got sick, and Queenie told me that her mum went to the place she works, the chemist, to get medicine and she was crying there as well. Poor Queenie didn't know what to do...

But anyway, Jackie told me that her mum and her got into another argument, so my grandma said to ask her to stop back-chatting to her parents because she's adding to the stress that they're already under. And I, being the defensive one, argued Jackie's position, saying that it was her brother that really caused it, but grandma, who looked to be near tears, said that it shouldn't matter who caused it...you should just tolerate it anyway.

For some reason I felt like she was making a dig at me as well, when she said that parents work hard, and it's not like they can kick you out of the house because they'd worry about you, and blah blah...but yes...

Anyway, Jackie, just for now, until things get better between your parents and Bec...I don't know how long that will take..but just hold your tongue..I know you don't like them yelling and lecturing you when you don't deserve it, but sometimes parents are wrong, and when they realise, they're too proud and stubborn to admit it. And they're usually wrong...idiots.

Anyway just hold your tongue for now. One day they'll realise they've wronged you.

Been quite empty lately...

As the title suggests, this blog has been quite quiet, and some would suggest that that would be a good thing because nothing bad has happened. Well as it is, I'm quite bored right now and I thought I would post something to keep me entertained.

Right now, this blog consists of Viv, Jackie and I. I've mentioned this blog to the fourth member of our little clique, Queenie, and she is extremely interested. Anyhow, I thought I would just take the time to talk a little bit about our relationship with each other.

Jackie, Queenie and I were all born around the same time, though I'm the oldest. So it can be said that the closeness in age has influenced our relationship and made us all that much closer. The closeness in age means that we generally experience the same things at the same time and so we have a lot to share with each other.

Viv is the youngest out of the four of us, but she's still close enough in age to relate to us. Generally we share our 'war' stories with her and warn her about what she should expect from the horrible years ahead of her.

Each school break, we go out as a group to the city and have a great time together. We go karaoke, take sticker photots, play pool, watch movies, shop, eat and just have a really nice time. I love these periods spend together because I feel that I can really be myself without fear of anyone judging, because if you can't be yourself around family...then there's really no hope for you.

Anyway the upcoming school break will definitely be different and I'm extremely excited for it. We're planning on going to Jackie's place and sleeping over and then going to the city for a whole day, and this feels like it's going to be an awesome holiday.

I hope everything goes well, and that we all enjoy ourselves immensely, though spending time around each other makes me happy anyway.

I especially enjoy spending time with Jackie, because she has the most amusing character. She came over on Sunday, on a day where I wasn't feeling all that great because my tests were coming up, and overall just feeling quite depressed. But after spending some time with her, my spirits were lifted, and they were lifted even more after reading her post on this blog.

I just love Jackie, and her ability to make people happy and I admire that quality about her.

Recently there has been some worry about Queenie. She's definitely the one who stresses the most about things, especially test periods. The last I heard, she'd locked herself in her room, studying frantically and she had lost weight and had gotten quite pale. Sometimes I worry about her and the amount of pressure that she places on herself. Being around her is definitely very different than being around Jackie. I don't feel as comfortable, but I still love hanging out with her because of her crudeness. Just like me! =)

And Viv, dear sister Viv, we're not as close as I'd like, but she is a great listener, even if she gives out the worst advice. But she has a great listening ear, a great person to go to if you want to rant, even if she tends to tune me out a lot. It's not my fault I forgot I told her the same thing ten minutes ago...ahem.

But yes, boredom leads to strange things. But I'm glad I wrote this.

Love,

Jay

Bebe Hits The Blog

Hey!! This is Jackie [or Bebe]!! As you've seen my name mentioned in the previous couple of blogs~

ok.. lets see.. Let start with an intro about me and my part of the family tree!! As you know my dad, Raymond, my mum, Myanh, THE AWESOME ME!!, Bec (short for Rebecca) yea you've heard about her wrong-doings in viv's blog and my lil bro Oscar and baby sister Kristy [yes.. its KRISTY with a K not Ch as posted in the previous blogs.. *sigh* some cousins arent they ;p don't worry we still love them!!] thats pretty much my family!!

OK I know the world doesnt evolve around me!! But hey!! A girl can't help showing herself to the world right? Alright here goes!! Full name: Jacqueline [insert last name here]<-- Just being safe .. hehe. But alot of people call me Jackie and closer friends call me bebe.. why? apparently whenever I'm on msn i always say "brb" and im extremely busy, so they say im as busy as a "bee" *shrugs* NOW a must know and it'll be first question I'll ask you about me.. is... *drum rolls* I LOVE PURPLE!! Explains why my font is in purple I guess.. what else.. *thinks* oh right!! I love singing!! Haha I sing everywhere i go!! Too bad I can't be a singer.. and i love my MEAT!! yea.. not the veggie girl.. though i force myself at times.. OMG!! HOW CAN I FORGET!! I LOOOURVEE my family!! esp. my cousins!! they make family meetings soo much more enjoyable xDxD

Now for the hates.. I hate SLUTS!!! people who are annoying and stupid!! not that I'm smart myself.. but if you're dumber than me?! yes you need to see the doctor man.. omg.. sorry.. i just hate too many things.. lets just skip this bit..

IMPORTANT: I'M A BITCH AND NOT AFRAID TO ADMIT IT!!!!!

Overall: I'm really outgoing and I love my parties and outings, but i have limits and morals.. so i won't be one of those i'm-a-slut-now-screw-me chicks. I consider myself extremely emotional.. so yea.. I cry easily.. yet at the same time its hard to make me cry on the outside.. I'm a pretty emotionally strong girl despite my soft side.. Since I'm so emotional i can't watch horrors.. I'll be screaming.. tearing.. freaking.. yea.. just don't think about taking me to a horror or thriller.. I tend to be nice to people, though if you get on my bad side.. nuhuh.. hunnie.. you're in pretty bad spot.. trust me.. I'll rip your head off xD But if i love you then I DO MEAN I LOVE YOU! And despite all that~ I have my serious moments and yes I love my Deep and Meaningful talks.. but I'm a growing YOUNG LADY!! so I still have fun while being mature!! OK!! ^^ enough about me now onto the blogging!!

So as my TO DIE FOR cousins have mentioned!! This blog would consist of our whole family~ a really... big.. family.. filled with drama.. sometimes me and my cousins reminise about our times and we're just like.. god.. what a life full of drama.. We reckon we can actually make a drama out of this and it'll be one of the biggest hits of all time.. No, seriously!! No exaggeration intended!! Dramas I mean FML type.. Frustraion, Depression Gossip, DUH THE HAPPINESS! and oh how can i forget.. the LOVE between us!!

I really can't wait till we fill in on our recent pasts on a certain girl called Caitlyn!! Our ONCE imported cousin from Vietnam who came on a study visa.. but that would take a while since theres a little too much in it and if you want it good.. you've gotta know it in full detail!!

So until our next update stay tuned into "If My Life Were a Drama"!!! Where we will discuss the continuous issues on my sister Bec!!!

Coming Soon: Caitlyn the I-Think-Your'e-Stupid-and-I'm-so-Good-so-Don't-Even-Compare BITCH!!

x3 Bebe.

Family Tree

Sup people, Jay here. =)

Ok so yesterday, instead of studying for my half-yearlies like I should've been doing, I tried to draw up a family tree. I think I've been mostly successful, but there are quite a few people missing from there, and I don't know most of the names...so they're just put down as husband and wife and stuff. My mum's side of the family has vietnamese names, so it's going to be harder to talk about them.

So I'm going to provide a rough outline of our family tree. Starting with my dad's side because it's easier:

My grandpa had three wives, his first wife was someone I've never met, and I won't get the chance to meet her because she's deceased. He then married twin sisters, one of which is my grandma.

So Long was married to his first wife, Nghia and Dung.

With his first wife, he had a son, Chun, who has two sons and a daughter.

With Nghia, he had a daughter and a son. The daughter, my auntie, passed away when she was my age, and I only recently found that out...yesterday in fact. The son, John, is my father, and he married my mum, Cam, and they have four children, Bel, Jay, Viv and Wendy.

With Dung, he had several children. The eldest daughter, Bernice, is married to Charles and they have a son named David.

The second child is my uncle, Bryan who is married to my aunty, who's name escapes me, but they have four children, Florence, Amanda, Alison and Ernest.

The third child is my uncle, who died in a motorbike accident while in Vietnam. I never got to meet him either.

The fourth child is my aunt, Jun, who has a daughter named Caitlyn, who will be mentioned quite a bit in later posts.

The fifth childn is my aunt, Lyn, who married Cam (not my MUM!!) and has two sons, Howard and Arthur.

The sixth child is my aunt, Hing, who has two sons, both of which who's names I do not know.

The seventh child is my aunt, Anny, who married Quan, and has two children, Queenie and Christopher (Chris for short).

The eight child is my aunt, My-anh, who is married to Raymond, who has four children, Jackie, Rebecca, Oscar and Christie.

The ninth child is my aunt, Mei-Yee, who is married to Peter, who has two lovely girls, Alice and Victoria (her b'day is coming up!!)

And last but not least, my uncle Soney.

And that's my dad's side of the family...extremely big so far...just think, the other side is bigger!! Anyway, I got tired just writing this! So I'm going to take a break. The other side is coming soon.

Love,

Jay

Maybe what you see isn't what it really is

Hey guys,

Originally we were going to start this blog on a brighter note, but with what has recently happened, I think we should start with what is currently happening.

Now, I think we should've introduced all the members of our family before we got down to the serious business but it'll be a really long list and I don't think either one of us really wants to start on that just yet.

I'll just introduce you to the people who I will be referring to in this post.

Firstly, I have 3 sisters, one of which you already know is doing this blog with me. We'll get to introducing our whole family later, I just need to introduce you to my older sister called Belinda (shortened to Bel), the eldest.

Secondly, on my dad's side of the family, we have my cousin, Jacqueline (shortened to Jackie) and her family. This consists of my aunty, uncle, Jackie, Rebecca (shorted to Bec), Oscar and Christie.

That's all the introducing that I will do for now since they are the only people who are really connected to what I have to say.

Anyways, on with the story.

Well, firstly I must give you a background check on Bec.
- Appearance wise: she is considered to be pretty and to me, innocent looking
- Behaviour wise: she is really bad
- she has a horrible boyfriend who isn't really that good looking, has no money, no reputation and treats her really badly.
- she stays out really late
- she smokes
- she jigs school
- she drinks alcohol.

Now before you start thinking that maybe I have judged her a little harshly, you have to take into consideration that she does all these things but she is really only turning 16 this year.

If you didn't think this was bad enough, just recently she moved out of her own home. Without any notification or any indication, she just upped and moved a few days ago. At first, she just stayed over at her boyfriend's for a day then the next day she took her clothes and just left. She only comes back at 5am in the morning to get clothes.

This has left my aunty and uncle in agony. Apart from having to put up with her bad behaviour, they now have to put up with her leaving the house as well. My aunty begged Bec to come back, but Bec didn't listen and just pushed her down and left. Now, my aunty can't sleep well, she cries and she can't even think straight because she is so sick with worry. My uncle also cannot sleep well. Both in pain and worrying like no tomorrow about Bec. But does Bec care?

No way! Just today, I was out shopping with my friend for my friend's birthday present and I chanced meeting her, only to see her hanging out with all these guys. I went into a store to buy something and when we came out again, she was smoking. I felt so angry at her for being so stupid. She never used to be so bad. She was innocent and fun to hang out with. But now, she's turned into someone that I don't even recognise.

We used to go out to the city as a cousin outing in the holidays. And I used to look at her, knowing that she had done all those terrible things, but always thinking, she looks so innocent, someone who needs to be protected and sheltered from the world. But that's not the case anymore.

I really wanna get into her mind and find out for myself what she is thinking. I know that people don't just turn like that for no reason. What made Bec change so drastically?

Apparently, she said to Jackie that she wanted to be just like my sister Bel. But how is she trying to be like Bel if she is acting like that? My sister may club and stay out late, but she knows her limits and protects herself well. She's an intelligent girl who gets good marks in Uni. And sure, sometimes she can be a pain in the ass and has a really bad temper, but she can be kind when she wants to be. Hell, even I admire her in some ways. She has this aura about her that attracts people to her and she is really out-going and and friendly. It helps that she's also gorgeous as well.

So out of all that I've said about Bel, what exactly does Bec see in Bel that makes her act the way that she does, considering the fact that she said she wants to be like Bel?

I just don't understand and I wish I could. It's painful to watch a family break and if I could help, I would do whatever it takes. I really just want to walk up to Bec and knock some senses into her, even if it means slapping her across the face or dumping a bucket of cold water on her. If that's what it takes to get her to listen, then by all means, I wish I could sum up the courage to do so. Then I could maybe talk some senses in her. Wake her up from that nightmare that she has walked into.

But sadly, I'm not that brave and do not have the strength to do something as drastic as that. I can only pray and hope that something good will come their way and that somehow, they will be able to solve their problems and come to a positive outcome.

So yeah, sorry about the negative start. But here it is.

I can't really say that I hoped you enjoyed the post because that would sorta be a little strange, but you get what I mean. Tell me what you think. Leave a message. What do you think of our family so far?

~Viv