This blog is just to keep everyone updated with our lives~
Today's been absolutely tiring day for me.. actually.. most of my days are.. if I'm not working, I'm out partying, if not that, I'm out chilling, or cleaning at home.. or doing whatever I'm doing, could be anything really..
I've been meaning to blog again sooner but I've been caught up with all the post-HSC events!! Hahaha~ Our poor Vivien is currently under textbooks studying for her horrifying exams!!! HERE'S A SHOUT OUT TO HER!!! GLUXX WITH ALL YOUR EXAMS AND I'M SURE YOU'LL ACE THEM WITH FLYING COLOURS!!!!
What's been troubling me lately is how rarely I see my cousins. It's kinda disappointing really.. our families haven't been together often, nor are there much family gatherings either.. It's as if the family bond between our parents are slowly drifting away and maybe one day, all that childhood they've spent with each other would be long forgotten, that scares me somewhat.. Despite us humans been so complex-minded and intelligent when it comes to emotions we're really horrible with it, how can people whom they've been once so closely tied with be so easily forgotten simply by time? This I'm referring to both friends and family.. All those memories, good and bad all doesn't matter anymore. I honestly CAN'T do it myself, I can't see the heart in me to let go anyone close to me, maybe that's why I can be called selfish or even greedy having to cling onto everyone I get close to or have shared a bondage with.
It almost frightens me at how us humans are able to forget that and even let go of something I find so precious to us.. Negative. I would never let that happen with myself or those around me, that's why I try so hard to hold on to everyone is my life, though as some fail (my sister), I also know I've succeeded in some (many of my now inseparable friends) .
Hold Those Special to You because One Day You May Come By Too Late.
Now back to our lives, as I am leaving to America on the 7th of December for an entire month before I would be back onto the scorching lands of Sydney, Jay, Viv, Queenie and Me have organised another cousin outing to the city (once again) on Monday the 6th. Unfortunately Queenie has work that day and we can't change the date as Viv doesn't finish her exams until earlier that day, however, we have decided that me, Jay and Viv would still enjoy the day out and have Queenie join us for dinner after she's done with work at Wagaya~ I'm sooooo excited for that day to come as I haven't hanged out with them as a group for soooo long and I MISS THEM SOOOOO MUCH!!!!!
Now, Whats been up with my lovelife? Nothing. Absolutely Cup Empty, Nothing. Yea.. I still can't get the dickhead out of my head, Maybe this is the downside to my "Clingy~ness to relationships and my emotions". He was someone special to me, what I felt with him was different to every other guy and I know he would've been the one who would keep the smile on my face, cause the butterflies in my stomach, the tears on my pillow but the skipping beats to my heart. *Sigh* but I have no regrets with the feelings I have for this guy.. None the less he is the one who allowed me to feel these feelings and despite how he treats me simply reflecting on our memories or looking at our photos, a smile always makes it's way to my face regardless to whether I want it to or not.
The End.
(Only to this BLOG!! No one gets away from me this easily!! *evil laughs*)
<3 Be.
