lovemycousins

heyyy~ its queenieee
a girl who stresses and worries about everything..sorry guys! trying very hard to fix that! ==
but moving on...i just want to say that I LOVEE my cousinss!! always supporting me and making me laugh when i'm at my saddest...

This is very depressing btw soo haha but i need to release ;)
as you all know...i broke up with my bf, mel~ it was a relationship that has brought me great pain but also great happiness.

At the beginning, the relationship was going really well until...he moved to epping and i started yr 12...from then onwards it started to break down, we hardly saw each other...we started drifting apart ...my mum will constantly tell me and pressure me to not to let one guy affect my future..so i tried my best to focus on my studies but of course the time spent with my bf was decreasing

whenever we talked, he would always tell me how lonely he was without me..i felt soo guilty...it was unfair that he had to suffer because of my selfishness. i was mad at myself..hated myself...
i always tell him sorry i dont spend enough time with you...he always tells me nicely that 'its fine' 'i understand' but i know deep down inside he really disliked the fact that he could not spend time with his gf like in a normal relationship. i always thought breaking up would be better for both of us but i was wrong...

i have come to realise that i actually still love him very much but its too late...cos i've already lost him...
jay will probably kill me when she sees this...but i've been crying non stop over him today** even now...
i hope he finds happiness with someone who will always be there for him ....

fkkkk i'm going to get red panda eyes tomorrow O_O

anyways~ on a happier side! i want to say thanks to Jay!!! who puts up with my depression err nearly everyday and can always make me laugh soo hard with her err dirtiness and sexiness LOL...*btw i still feel sorry for the camel ;)
Viv!! you're always giving me comfort and listened to me even tho you had english hw !! and of course i love jackieee! even tho she chose maths over me haha but i still love her! you guys makes mee...-nose bleed/erect- god why do you guys have to be soo hot for
fkk if only aus. allows incest and lesbian relationships!! i'll marry you alll!!

this weekend was a depressing onee....but i've decided not to look back at the past but instead move forward!!

and i just cant emphasise enough....



I LOVEEE MY COUSINSSSS

but omg i cant wait to bitch about cailtin!! fk i hate viet girls ><

lots of love,
qq~

Maybe what you see isn't what it really is

Hey guys,

Originally we were going to start this blog on a brighter note, but with what has recently happened, I think we should start with what is currently happening.

Now, I think we should've introduced all the members of our family before we got down to the serious business but it'll be a really long list and I don't think either one of us really wants to start on that just yet.

I'll just introduce you to the people who I will be referring to in this post.

Firstly, I have 3 sisters, one of which you already know is doing this blog with me. We'll get to introducing our whole family later, I just need to introduce you to my older sister called Belinda (shortened to Bel), the eldest.

Secondly, on my dad's side of the family, we have my cousin, Jacqueline (shortened to Jackie) and her family. This consists of my aunty, uncle, Jackie, Rebecca (shorted to Bec), Oscar and Christie.

That's all the introducing that I will do for now since they are the only people who are really connected to what I have to say.

Anyways, on with the story.

Well, firstly I must give you a background check on Bec.
- Appearance wise: she is considered to be pretty and to me, innocent looking
- Behaviour wise: she is really bad
- she has a horrible boyfriend who isn't really that good looking, has no money, no reputation and treats her really badly.
- she stays out really late
- she smokes
- she jigs school
- she drinks alcohol.

Now before you start thinking that maybe I have judged her a little harshly, you have to take into consideration that she does all these things but she is really only turning 16 this year.

If you didn't think this was bad enough, just recently she moved out of her own home. Without any notification or any indication, she just upped and moved a few days ago. At first, she just stayed over at her boyfriend's for a day then the next day she took her clothes and just left. She only comes back at 5am in the morning to get clothes.

This has left my aunty and uncle in agony. Apart from having to put up with her bad behaviour, they now have to put up with her leaving the house as well. My aunty begged Bec to come back, but Bec didn't listen and just pushed her down and left. Now, my aunty can't sleep well, she cries and she can't even think straight because she is so sick with worry. My uncle also cannot sleep well. Both in pain and worrying like no tomorrow about Bec. But does Bec care?

No way! Just today, I was out shopping with my friend for my friend's birthday present and I chanced meeting her, only to see her hanging out with all these guys. I went into a store to buy something and when we came out again, she was smoking. I felt so angry at her for being so stupid. She never used to be so bad. She was innocent and fun to hang out with. But now, she's turned into someone that I don't even recognise.

We used to go out to the city as a cousin outing in the holidays. And I used to look at her, knowing that she had done all those terrible things, but always thinking, she looks so innocent, someone who needs to be protected and sheltered from the world. But that's not the case anymore.

I really wanna get into her mind and find out for myself what she is thinking. I know that people don't just turn like that for no reason. What made Bec change so drastically?

Apparently, she said to Jackie that she wanted to be just like my sister Bel. But how is she trying to be like Bel if she is acting like that? My sister may club and stay out late, but she knows her limits and protects herself well. She's an intelligent girl who gets good marks in Uni. And sure, sometimes she can be a pain in the ass and has a really bad temper, but she can be kind when she wants to be. Hell, even I admire her in some ways. She has this aura about her that attracts people to her and she is really out-going and and friendly. It helps that she's also gorgeous as well.

So out of all that I've said about Bel, what exactly does Bec see in Bel that makes her act the way that she does, considering the fact that she said she wants to be like Bel?

I just don't understand and I wish I could. It's painful to watch a family break and if I could help, I would do whatever it takes. I really just want to walk up to Bec and knock some senses into her, even if it means slapping her across the face or dumping a bucket of cold water on her. If that's what it takes to get her to listen, then by all means, I wish I could sum up the courage to do so. Then I could maybe talk some senses in her. Wake her up from that nightmare that she has walked into.

But sadly, I'm not that brave and do not have the strength to do something as drastic as that. I can only pray and hope that something good will come their way and that somehow, they will be able to solve their problems and come to a positive outcome.

So yeah, sorry about the negative start. But here it is.

I can't really say that I hoped you enjoyed the post because that would sorta be a little strange, but you get what I mean. Tell me what you think. Leave a message. What do you think of our family so far?

~Viv

Introduction

Hey!

I suppose the best way to start this blog is by firstly introducing ourselves and our family. Well, for starters, my name is Vivien and together with my sister, Jessica, we decided to make a blog about our family life.

We actually made this blog a few days ago, but neither of us could get off our lazy asses to make the first post. Finally, I decided to just do it, to get the show on the road.

So here I am, writing the first post. I'll just introduce myself first and let my sister introduce herself later in another post.

I'm Vivien, but you can call me Viv for short. My birthday is the 21st of April and yes, I am still at school, not that i'm gonna tell you my age :P. I love hanging out with my friends, listening to music, singing, reading online romance stories, playing games and just relaxing. I absolutely hate school, especially with all the homework that is being thrown my way. It doesn't help that I go tutoring either, courtesy of being chinese and having asian parents. That explains a lot doesn't it ;)

I suppose if you were to describe my personality, I would be one of those very empathetic people. I can't help but feel whatever some else feels, whether it be sorrow or pain, when they explain to me their situation. I can be very high at very random times i.e. when I am tired or have to get to class earlier than usual :d

Anyways...that's my introduction. Nice to meet you :)

So I guess now it's my turn to have a crack at introducing myself. I think we're going to have a busy time trying to get this post up to date with all the stuff that has happened so far, and let me tell you, a LOT has happened recently, especially in the lead up to the new year, and the month after the new year.

But first, ME! As stated, my name is Jessica, though that name is rarely used, since most people just give me nicknames, my friends call me Jess, or Chau. My parents call me Jessie, and my sisters call me Jay. Personally, I like to be called Jay, but after so many years of being called so many other things, I guess I've gotten used to the other names as well.

I'm also in school still, but to make things cleared, I'm in my last year of school, so next year will be the start of the big bad UNI!

So a bit about me: I guess you could say I have a pretty easy-going personality, but I'm definitely capabale of being serious in the appropriate situations. I have a fiery temper and the strength to match it. But I'm also a hardcore romantic, and when I fall, I fall hard, and this is definitely going to lead to me to a lot of heartache in the future.

Family to me is very important, they're the foundations of your heart, and without them, you just wouldn't be you. Sometimes I hate them, sometimes they annoy me, but depsite their misgivings, I love them, and I love spending time with family.

I love playing with my baby cousins, and bitching and having fun with the older ones. We're a tight knit bunch, and a lot of back stabbing gets done, but it's all good natured and nothing bad really happens. We have a few bad apples, but for the most part we're family.