Hello hello!

Hey my dears!

Vivy's in the house!

Haha...hey guys. Gosh..i'm in such a good mood for some unknown reason. I was rather annoyed before but now i'm happy? I'm so strange.

Meh...I was just listening to a very bouncy song that made me dancer crazily into my room. It made me think of our cousin outing just recently at Star City. Our parents rented an apartment and we were par~taying while our parents were downstairs gambling or watching a concert. :P

It was sooo fun! We were inside the master bedroom, with our little cousin (who really shouldn't have been there) dancing to songs on Jackie's ipod, which was attached to a loud speaker. Now, i must say. I'm not exactly one of those people who usually dance. I find it rather awkward and would rather not coz i don't like embarrassing myself. When I'm around friends, i would just stand on the sidelines, shaking my head and feigning an excuse that i didn't know how to dance when someone tried to get me to join in. Yeah...i'm a boring person, so what!

The only times i dance are in the confines of my bedroom, with no one but myself, dancing in front of the mirror :D But I found that I was able to dance comfortably that night with my sister and cousins. And I had so much fun and didn't feel like digging a hole for myself because i was dying of embarrassment. I just belted out moves and didn't give a damn of what others thought of me. Something that i usually don't do. And for that reason, I have another reason to be so grateful to this tight bond that we share.

To be able to do something that is outside of my comfort zone is rare as I am a coward. So to be able to do that without shame, is a really big achievement, thanks to my sister and cousins.

We also sang to our auntie that night, who had to stay back to look after her two young children. I hope that she had as much fun as we had despite not being able to go with all the other adults. I hope that our little number to her was able to cheer her up and was able to let her have a little fun.

It's seriously no joke to be a mother. I'm sure we all agree that just trying to look after a child for a few hours is really tiring, let alone a few years. And to top that off, our auntie has to look after two children, both at young ages. That is crazy! I really take me hat off to her.

And i hope that our two little adorable cousins will get well soon as they are both not feeling well right now. They both get sick a lot, especially the little one. So I hope that they get well soon and become little energetic buggers again :)

Oh oh oh! It's nearly time for our cousin outing! The days counting down to the eventful evening are just sooo long! I just want it to hurry up and arrive so we can have lots and lots of fun together! I just can't wait!

Hehe...tomorrow is our prep day. We have to vacuum and change the bedsheets in prep for the night. It's gonna be very tiring, but very very worth it :)

Aiya...i'm itching for the day to come already!

I better go off and get some work done now. Cya lovelys

~Viv

False Happiness

Yarzzzz!! I'm here to blog an behalf of all of us!!! I would like to announce that we have all offically finished our exams!! Me being the last to finish xD You don't know how much of a pain in the ass the last two weeks have been.. not to mention my last test being Extension 2 Maths!! Great job school for having such good organization!! Shoving such a horrible subject on the last day when everyone are literally studying zombies!! Neways but I was able to gather all my last strength the dance out of the hell hall and yea... fell flat face from exhaustion *sigh* What school does to you..~

Ok so here we are end of term 1, Easter is around the corner, us students are celebrating the epic holidays together!! Yes!! And that means us cousins are about to celebrate this wonderful event!! With my last mentioned Sleepover!! We have planned Monopoly, Water Guns, 500 piece Puzzles x2, Hot Pot and City Outing filled with food, karaoke and Sticker photos!!

Anyways just like to shout out to you guys here about something appearing on my door step 2 days ago~ One of the best things that has ever happened in my life!! It was the Polaroid Camera that I ordered a few weeks ago!! The Fujifilm Instax 25!! It is the cutest thing out!! Oh I also like to brag out my seksi ipod speakers!! Music comes from 4 sides, Alarm and most of all I just love the remote that comes with it xD

Enough of the dragging!! Why is the blog called False Happiness you ask? Well don't you think its true? Yes although our exams are over but this is pretty much telling us how close some of our HSC are to us, halfway through and not alot of time left~ So lets spend this short break free and filled with laughter!!!

Just a lil brief update on my sister~ My mum has been to a counsellor on Tuesday and they advised her to call the police because we don't know if she is safe. The police surprisingly worked fast after a lil interview with my mum they managed to find her at one of her friends place and drove her back.. They told them to have a talk before they left and I decided to lock my mum and bec in a room so they can talk it out, after my shower when I went back in to see how they were... I only saw my mother pouring her eyes out and bec once again on her phone ==. She's always like that.. Ignoring everyone when we only try to understand her and ask her what she wants.. Annoyed I sat down next to her and begged her to tell me whats wrong and if she just wanted to go out without us telling her when to come back? that why she wont leave home again? She said no.. ok.. Fair enough.. So what do you want? *she continues playing on her phone*.. I hate it.. I mean ok you have a right to not say anything but at least give the slightest respect to your mum and listen!! Right? So I snatched the phone off her but she kicked and scratched me.. Me being in a bad mood at 12am midnight.. With a Chemistry exam the next day, fought back.. I hit daylights out of her.. xD oppsie violent me but if this would teach her respect I shall do it!! Mum tried to stop us but she hit mum too!! Whilst mum pulled me back she yelled to bec "Hit me, If you want to hit me, just hit me" and she did.. she punched mums arms.. She punched her in the head twice.. I couldn't take it and hit her once again. Mum was crying, she ripped us apart but I continued.. no one hits their own mother and especially not her!!

*Breathless* I raged at her, she stormed to her room, Me and my mums tears were flowing non-stop .. nothing hurts us more than to see my sister, her daughter walk the wrong path.. She states "You guys cry all you want I got another phone I don't care about any of you's" With a smirk on her face, I asked her "Why did you hit mum? she was defenseless why did you still hit her?! She simply said.. "I don't have a mum like her" What is that? That's not what a human with feelings would say!! I told her friends will always end up leaving, family never do, no matter what, plus her friends are fake, she don't like her for her!! Yet she ignored me she said "I don't have a family with you guys, I like my friends so much more, they are way better than you's!!" Speechless.. Entirely.. She started calling me ugly and saying I think I'm so pretty but really everyone hates me, I mean even if its true.. friendship-wise at least my friends are true.. I know most of her friends and they all use her.. All leave her in the end.. However we just left her after.. We knew she won't change and we had nothing more to say.. Disappointed, but I've still decided to invite her to our cousin outing.. Never-the-less she is still family.. I've told Jay that we won't make her feel left out if she agrees to come.. I mean.. We are studying belonging in english now.. We should understand the feeling of not-belonging its painful.. its lonely.. No matter how bad a person may be, they always want to belong.. Don't they? No one wants to be alone.. Maybe I'm just over sensitive once again, emotional >.> but really.. I think about it alot.. I don;t think anyone deserves to not belonging.. But that's why thought ^^ *deep sigh*

Gosh... this blog has really taken the last bit of my energy ><.. How can I complain? I brought this onto myself.. from sleeping at 2-3am every night to waking up at 7 not to mention today I woke up at 5am to study.. Yarz... Sent sunrise with 4unit maths.. With work and studies, bec all rotating in my life.. What a sad life I have.. aye? But I might continue fighting!!! Now I would-d-d-d.....zZzZzZzZzZzZzZzZz..... *sleeping thoughts* I think I slept halfway through a sentence... oh well.. I-Love-You~ mmm chocolate bunny.. *drools in sleep* I love easter.. ooooooo I see LaLaLand!!! *flies* Ok.. I'm just weird... dot.dot.dot.
*wink*

x3 Bebe.

This morning grandma stopped me in the kitchen and talked to me. She told me that Jackie needs to stop back-chatting to her parents because she's making them upset with the constant arguing. Of course the real reason she wanted to talk to me was because she wanted to tell me about Jackie's mum. She said that her mum was feeling sick and she was crying because she was upset about Bec.

Apparently Bec hasn't been going to school lately, and there's been worries that she might be kicked out of the school if she doesn't attend. The last school she went to apparently complained a lot of her, and that's why she had to switch schools.

And her mum has been so upset about this because she doesn't know what to do and she got sick, and Queenie told me that her mum went to the place she works, the chemist, to get medicine and she was crying there as well. Poor Queenie didn't know what to do...

But anyway, Jackie told me that her mum and her got into another argument, so my grandma said to ask her to stop back-chatting to her parents because she's adding to the stress that they're already under. And I, being the defensive one, argued Jackie's position, saying that it was her brother that really caused it, but grandma, who looked to be near tears, said that it shouldn't matter who caused it...you should just tolerate it anyway.

For some reason I felt like she was making a dig at me as well, when she said that parents work hard, and it's not like they can kick you out of the house because they'd worry about you, and blah blah...but yes...

Anyway, Jackie, just for now, until things get better between your parents and Bec...I don't know how long that will take..but just hold your tongue..I know you don't like them yelling and lecturing you when you don't deserve it, but sometimes parents are wrong, and when they realise, they're too proud and stubborn to admit it. And they're usually wrong...idiots.

Anyway just hold your tongue for now. One day they'll realise they've wronged you.