lovemycousins

heyyy~ its queenieee
a girl who stresses and worries about everything..sorry guys! trying very hard to fix that! ==
but moving on...i just want to say that I LOVEE my cousinss!! always supporting me and making me laugh when i'm at my saddest...

This is very depressing btw soo haha but i need to release ;)
as you all know...i broke up with my bf, mel~ it was a relationship that has brought me great pain but also great happiness.

At the beginning, the relationship was going really well until...he moved to epping and i started yr 12...from then onwards it started to break down, we hardly saw each other...we started drifting apart ...my mum will constantly tell me and pressure me to not to let one guy affect my future..so i tried my best to focus on my studies but of course the time spent with my bf was decreasing

whenever we talked, he would always tell me how lonely he was without me..i felt soo guilty...it was unfair that he had to suffer because of my selfishness. i was mad at myself..hated myself...
i always tell him sorry i dont spend enough time with you...he always tells me nicely that 'its fine' 'i understand' but i know deep down inside he really disliked the fact that he could not spend time with his gf like in a normal relationship. i always thought breaking up would be better for both of us but i was wrong...

i have come to realise that i actually still love him very much but its too late...cos i've already lost him...
jay will probably kill me when she sees this...but i've been crying non stop over him today** even now...
i hope he finds happiness with someone who will always be there for him ....

fkkkk i'm going to get red panda eyes tomorrow O_O

anyways~ on a happier side! i want to say thanks to Jay!!! who puts up with my depression err nearly everyday and can always make me laugh soo hard with her err dirtiness and sexiness LOL...*btw i still feel sorry for the camel ;)
Viv!! you're always giving me comfort and listened to me even tho you had english hw !! and of course i love jackieee! even tho she chose maths over me haha but i still love her! you guys makes mee...-nose bleed/erect- god why do you guys have to be soo hot for
fkk if only aus. allows incest and lesbian relationships!! i'll marry you alll!!

this weekend was a depressing onee....but i've decided not to look back at the past but instead move forward!!

and i just cant emphasise enough....



I LOVEEE MY COUSINSSSS

but omg i cant wait to bitch about cailtin!! fk i hate viet girls ><

lots of love,
qq~