Frustration building up...

Hello~ Hello~ HELLO!!

It's Be~ once again commenting on this fabulous blog on our family from the inside!! <-- bit confusing right there.. anyway.. this is a blog dedicated to Jay's previous 2 blogs.. really.. life within our family is hard.. cold rock hard.. DAMN RIGHT!! Cold Rock In Your Face Hard~ ok >.> i'll stop.. =.="

Back to the main story!! Ok so yea... my sis has been a pain in the ass... not literally.. but honestly.. shes just.. ugh.. UNbelievable!! I mean yes i've been though the rebellion stage but you have to have limits right? I don't want to go into depth too much on her for the time being as it'll take me WAYYYYY too long to really post it up.. BUT on the surface~ cut short~ wateva.. here it is..
*age 15.. turning 16
*changed schools..
*foul attitude
*smokes
*devirginised xD
*skips school at least half the time
*forging signatures
*getting into fights
*comes home at 11pm every night (if lucky)
*known as the "RAKING queen" (raking means stealing for those who don't know ;p)
*has had many affairs outside her currently: 7th bf since.. 2008?
**secret*
*went through abortion
*etc etc. cant think of it right now.. too much xD

Honestly.. I don't wanna make my sister look bad or anything.. but reli.. I'm not exaggerating!! Its just drives us all insane.. my point is.. I know my mum has it bad and all.. I mean having such a disgraceful daughter.. but being the fact that i'm currently in my hsc year.. i have trouble learning how to study >.> [yea as i said i'm more the party girl], barely hitting the deadline of my assessments, having trouble with some of my peers, pressured by my grandma.. problems with my father.. and definately feel sorry for my mum. All i really wanna do is just help my mum out by taking matters into my hand.. yes~ that means taking responsibility of my sister >< but =/ its not as easy as it sounds
I swear without my cousins to really help me out through these times I would be soo lost and frustrated!! It's somewhat.. CRAZY!!! The effects on my emotional life!! REALLY!! Not to boast or anything, but i consider myself a really optimistic girl, i see the light in everything~ Just.. *sigh* its hard to really do that when you're just lost in the middle of nowhere, stuck between family and school which one to pay more attention to? Resulting me in my somewhat foul mood. I had been snappy and really short tempered but I guess i just wasnt use to that new change, I mean I'm only 16!! You can't expect me to take this on myself!! I don't tell my friends because everyones busy and I dont want to put burden on them too, my family.. disagrees with me and everything.. *sigh* but here I am coping with it all being a strong girl I am, I have shred tears, I have expressed anger.. Most Importantly, I saw who really knew and loves me~

Jay!! To you!! I really don't deserve all the compliment you gave me!!! I just enjoy seeing everyone around me smiling even if i'm not inside, I'll give you one on the outside!! i mean.. why ruin a party with a drunk? Why ruin a day with a frown?! If you ever need me, I'll be there!! I might not be the best listener because I'm a talker myself!! but i'll do my best~ Haha

Honestly!!! You've been much more of a help to me than i've been to you!! Trust me bubz!! Knowing that i'll be seeing you puts a smile on my face!! To you and I'm saying this to my cousins out there whos reading this too~ You guys are the best things thats happened in my life!!

Gosh!!! Didn't you reckon this post is soooo not like me?!
It seemed wayyy too depressing in the middle~ Thats a little insight to my mind xD
It's messy, it's confusing but I live the life I live and I know there are many out there who are going through worse!!!

Anyway~ I love ending things on a bright note!! SO GUYS!!! WISH ME LUCK ON MY UPCOMING HALF YEARLIES!! Hope you guys have also aced it with flying colours!! Oh!! AND A GREAT SHOUT OUT TO QUEENIE!! WHO WOULD BE JOINING US SOON IN THIS BLOG!! ANOTHER GREAT COUSIN OF OURs WHO WE EXTREMELY VALUE!!

She will be bringing us another insight to our family life [Haha aren't we seeing our family life from so many different angles xD]!! Anyway back to queenie!!! She's a sex goddess <-- not literally!! but the moment you lay your eyes on her.. *bam* you think you just went to heaven~ Ahh it runs in the blood!!Viv and Jay.. *nose bleed* f**k!! Opps!!! I didn't swear but I just couldn't help it!! Seksi Girls beautiful inside and outside~ what you guys out there should be looking for, not the sluts that are keeping your eyes blind from what you should truly value!!!

Signing Out.
Bebe.